God has a plan that is far beyond our understanding. The
bible says, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. (Isaiah
55:8). It is only at the hand of God that we leave this
world. Although, I cannot understand why God does what
He does; however, I strive to continually trust Him, and
His will for my life. In the past year, I have experienced
the passing of my Dad and my sister! The loss of loved ones always eludes our
understanding, but it is not beyond the mind of our God.
In 2008, I was forced to accept the move of God when my mother, who had suffered
several years of sickness, passed away. I believed the Holy Spirit spoke to me and told
me, “Let nothing separate me from the love of God (Romans 8:35).” He comforted me
and gave me peace with her leaving. He assured me, that we would all be okay. Thank
you, Lord. God kept His word, and we carried on with life!
Sixteen years later, my father closed his eyes at the age of 92. I counted it all joy because
I believed God had blessed us with his long life, and the suffering was over. Never in my
wildest dreams could I believe a year later, the death angel would visit my immediate
family again! In my limited thoughts, I believed my sister and I would continue to grow
old together, and we would carry on the legacy of our family. As I have previously said,
His thoughts are not our thoughts, nor is His way our way.
On Wednesday, May 7 th , my sister closed her eyes to this physical life. Yes, her suffering
was over, all the pain was gone, and God released her from this pilgrimage journey! This
was the end of an era. My nucleus family was gone. This was unsettling! When I said
this to my youngest, she said, “Well, now you have to celebrate the family you made!”
Wow! Celebrate the family that you made. This was good food for thought and I
immediately began to process it.
I know I am not the only one that has been forged into this position. I know there are
many who live this daily. However, I also know that the enemy wages his war against us
through our life crisis. Some get stuck in the pit of the pain, and never overcome it;
some shut down emotionally, and they no are not emotionally present with others; then
there are those who die in their despair. Grief has a way of wearing us down and
catapulting us into greater turmoil. Satan moves to kill, steal, and destroy of spiritual
wellbeing. Therefore, I cannot allow his wicked ways to overthrow the way of my God! I
cannot close my eyes to all of the great things He has done for me. The blessings that
came through my family-line; and the evolution of my life in Him! If it had not been for
the Lord on my side, where I be!